Chapter 113: 113
At morning
"Chloe"
"Baby"
"Get up in the morning." Mom caresses my forehead while I cuddle in her stomach.
"Woah, someone wants to be loved", she said while I’m still in sleep. But I can clearly hear everything. I didn’t get up but kept on holding her when I felt dad’s presence beside me.
"But now I know someone who wants to pamper you too", he said.
"Who?" I said even though I was in sleep.
"He is waiting outside for you", as he said my heart started beating louder.
It can’t be. James is here? No no it must be a joke. I ignored when dad told me again, "But when you don’t want him, let him wait in the cold outside." I have really zero idea if he is trying to bait me or if it is real but he succeeds in waking up while my feet run outside. My feet were naked but I could feel cold no more. I’m still in my night dress which is not that thick to cover me from the cold but still I did and opened the door.
"Hey", he was smiling like a fool.
Is he an idiot? Why is he doing this?
"How long are you here?" I asked.
"Umm" he acted as if he was thinking.
"No need to act so speak", I said while he rubbed his both palms together.
"From seven I think", he said with his stupid smile.
Now it is already ten o clock. He has been standing here for three hours. Is he crazy or did he finally lose some of the screw of his head because I never saw him like this. He is driving me insane truly or I’m driving myself insane.
"Come inside", I said while he followed me inside but I felt his body leaning on mine.
"W-what are you doing?" I lowered my voice but it was too late. Mom dad was already standing In Front of me while their mouth corners keep growing wider as if they are teasing me.
Gosh I’m so freaking embarrassed.
"Dad"
"Mom"
"He is...
I stopped but soon dad said, "We can talk about this later so take him to your room first."
I don’t know why they are being so cooperative today but this is so embarrassing. Soon I brought him inside. He was rubbing his face on my neck like a dog.
"James, get inside the blanket", I said but he didn’t budge.
"You want to die?" I glared.
"I don’t", he said. I can hear his teeth rubbing each other making a louder sound.
"Then get inside", I pushed him on the bed and covered him with the thickest blanket I had.
"Now take rest", I tried to walk away but he pulled me.
"What are you doing now?" I asked.
"Don’t go! Stay with me!" he whispered in my ear.
"Why?" I asked.
I’m not actually expecting him to say anything, but I waited until he said, "Because I want you to be here, with me."
Why are you behaving like this? Is it fun for you, you idiot? You are the one said go away. You are the one who said let’s end things then why are you doing this? Why are you making my heart beat so fast? Why are you giving butterflies just like when you used to make me feel when I was a teen?
Why? Tell me or I won’t know.
Things kept on roaming inside my head while he held me even tighter. I didn’t resist but let him do whatever he wanted to but he didn’t stop there but rubbed my stomach. I flinch.
"Why?"
"I want to love him."
He spoke.
"Don’t!"
I bite my lips.
"I want to."
"You can’t stop me."
"You can never."
His voice went gentle to husky in a minute. I feel so fuzzy. I feel a tingling sensation all over my body. I can’t be his touch or his words making me feel this way but I want to touch me more until I lose my mind.
He didn’t stop touching my belly but said many things for the baby.
"I love you so much baby."
"Sorry for telling you so late but I truly love you a lot." he kissed my shoulder.
"I said don’t. You should stop. Stop being so affectionate when you can’t keep it."
"Who said I’m not keeping?" he asked.
"I said. I said you can’t keep it up so stop it." I spoke.
"But I will keep going, so don’t push me away anymore." I’m not seeing his face. I have no idea what kind of face he is making me but from his voice I can understand he is acting like a puppy but I won’t change my decision.
"You are the one who pushed me away."
"Didn’t you say I have a boyfriend then why are you trying to come to me?" I asked.
He tried to make me face him. I resisted but I finally was looking at him.
"Then what am I?" he asked.
I can’t believe he is asking me this. Has he finally lost it?
"You are none." I spoke.
"Don’t look away from me. Look into my eyes and say I’m none. If I’m none then whose baby you are having?" he kept on making me look at him. My eyes are getting watery. I’m becoming weak. My legs are curled up.
"Tell me!!!" his voice went louder.
"Maybe the one who tried to Abort it?" I have no idea what I’m doing but as I said he captured my lips. His nails were hurting my shoulder but I couldn’t resist at all. It is all so freaking sweet for me to drown in him.
"Don’t take the name of the bastards. Do you think you will say and I will believe? I heard everything about how the guy threatens you? Do you think that day you hung up on me? No, you didn’t. I was on the side and I heard every conversation of you so I ran here."
"You know how scared I was. I thought if I didn’t hurry, I will fucking lose you. I had to beg your so-called Bestie aka Boyfriend to let me know the address of yours. And when I reached it took me time but I finally let you out of the place but you are saying the child is his? Why are you making me feel like this? Is this tormenting me good?"
He said lots of things.
"Answer me!!!"
"When you said there is no child, I felt devastated. When you said the pregnancy was only a lie, I felt like dying. You know that?" I can feel him but I still can’t bring myself to trust his words.
"No, I don’t."
"I don’t know anything."
I tried to get up by pushing him away from me but he was strong.
"Let go of me!" I spoke.
"Answer me first!"
"James, leave me!" my voice went louder then him.
"Answer me, Chloe!"
I pushed him at last.
"What the hell do you want me to say? What? Do I look like a toy to you? Have you ever given me the first priority? Have you ever? No right? Then why are you asking me now? You never ever care about me. I was the only fool for you from the day I fell in love with you."
"Every time I only used to follow you around even though you were not aware. But what did you make me feel like? At first you told me you like me just because of your so-called brother, then you announced that you slept with me, then you accused me when I took revenge?"
"You know yeah, I did bad for Aaron and Ayla but I didn’t do that bad to you because I was still in love with you. Just to get you I didn’t know I will look like a slut and whore to you but you too announced that In Front of your family. You know how I felt then?
Do you have any fucking idea?"
"Baby calm down", he came to stop me but I slapped his hand.
I’m burning in anger which he will never understand.
"Don’t call me baby!" I shouted at him but this idiot is coming even closer to me holding me tight.
He kept on breathing on my neck whispering to me to calm down.
"Don’t touch me!!!"
Now my voice no longer sounds loud but it is lowering the more he is trying to have contact with me.
"I will touch you as much as you want," he said.
"But I don’t want to." I spoke.
"Baby, whatever you say you want the opposite. Now you are crying when you are clearly telling me to go away. Why is it?"
"No, I’m not crying." I wiped my tears.
"You are crying but I won’t stop you. I know I hurt you a lot so hate me but I will keep on loving you."
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