Chapter 117: 117

"James", her gentle voice woke me up.

As soon as I looked outside, I didn’t find her. I massaged my temple thinking about her.

"Chloe", I kept on calling her name as if she was standing right in front of me and calling my name with a smile on her face.

I tried to get up from bed but found myself in my morning wood. I can’t believe I’m all hard just hearing her voice in my dream.

I’m sure I’m losing my brain cells at this rate.

I went to the washroom and relieved myself. I moaned calling her name again and again while the entire washroom was echoing my voice calling her. I can imagine her under me touching me all over me just like how we did it last time.

"I’m going insane!!"

After a while

"Sir, I got what you told me", that person came with the flower Chloe likes. It was red roses which she likes. I hope she forgives me after seeing me with these roses.

"Place it here on the table and leave", I told him while I was fixing my tie.

"But I could just drop you wherever you want," he said.

"It is no need", I said in a cold tone while he bowed and left.

I am already done getting ready. I sprayed some perfume for a change.

"I hope she likes it", I talked to myself while looking at the mirror but my heart was making a fuss.

I’m truly behaving like a teenager. I never dressed up like this in my entire life. Even when I was in school, I never changed my appearance nor I sprayed any collagen. But today no matter how I look at myself it feels so new as if I’m not in myself. This self no longer looks like me but different until I saw my phone buzzing.

"Best of luck brat", it was from Aaron.

I never knew he would call me brat which was once a dream for me to hear from him.

"You only like your brother", I remember Chloe saying to me.

No, James doesn’t think of Aaron. He too doesn’t want you to think about him so don’t. You can’t let it ruin like before. You still can get her back.

I kept mumbling to myself and finally drove my car toward her home.

I don’t know how I am going to go inside and talk to her parents nor I have any idea how to interact with her parents but I still need to go. I have to go and see her smile or I will fucking lose my self.

It took me fifteen minutes as she said last time but the ice kept on pouring on me letting me know I forgot to bring my scarf and now I’m freezing.

I got out of the car and stood in front of her home. I’m not getting the strength to go inside, which made me stay there for fifteen minutes until someone came out and opened the door.

"Who are you here for?" maybe her dad.

"Oh, I’m James Lee and I’m here to meet with Chloe", I said but my nervousness kept on killing me.

"Oh, you can come inside. I will call her", he said but I didn’t budge from the place.

"No, it is ok. I will wait for her to take me inside." I tried to be strong but deep inside my palms became numb already.

"But you will freeze to death. Let me wake her up." he said but I again stopped him.

"Let her sleep."

"The baby needs to get proper rest as well as she." I said looking down while they went inside.

They didn’t ask me anything else but I waited for hours until I saw her after so long running to me to open the door. I don’t know what her parents told her but she looked hell worried and brought me inside.

"What the hell are you doing in this cold?"

"Have you lost it?"

She kept on scolding me but I rested my head on her shoulder which felt warm to me.

"I’m taking him to my room", she said looking at her parents while I could barely see anyone.

I followed her upstairs and she made me sleep on her bed which smells exactly like her. Like jasmine but it is so freaking fresh unlike those strong smells which made me feel dizzy as hell. I roamed around in her bed from this corner to that corner until she tucked me with a bedsheet but she didn’t know the thing I needed more was her which made me pull her closer to me and sleep beside me.

"What are you doing?" she scolds me again.

"Warm", I mumble while resting my head on her shoulder.

I brought her inside the sheets and rubbed her belly which I always wanted to do. It was tough controlling myself from doing what I wanted to do the most.

"Don’t act as if you care", her voice sounds low which assured me she is not mad but she is showing her sadness to me.

"I do care", I mumble rubbing my nose on her cheek.

"No, you don’t!" she raised her voice but I made her turn to me and look into me.

"Look at me and say you don’t."

"Do I look like I don’t?"

"Tell me baby", she flinched as I called her the way I used to call her before.

"Don’t", she slapped my hand.

"What? Don’t? Tell me!"

"You know what I’m saying. Don’t need to act", she said while she was frowning but as I rubbed her belly again, she felt calm but that was for a moment until I answered a stupid question of her.

"Why are you here? Didn’t you say we are going to get rid of everything that happened? Then why. Are.you.here?" she asked.

"Didn’t you see what would have happened if I didn’t reach here on time?" I raised my voice a little bit.

"So what?"

"Chloe, don’t act childish!!" I held her shoulder.

"I’m not. I’m sure you came here because your so-called brother said so", as she said I kind of shut my mouth.

"So, you really did come because he said so?" she came closer but I said, "he said but I do want-

I was unable to complete my sentence and she get me out of her room and she locked her door as well while I was still outside. But that was only for fifteen minutes until I got a call from her which made me run into her room again while she was so sick which made me scared.

"Take me to doctor", she was basically pleading but I didn’t waste any fucking time but drove as fast as I can till, she was presented in front of the doctor.

She was in too much pain which I was unable to bear for me. I wanted to pat her head and tell her everything will be ok but I’m scared she will push me even further which made me stop.

"You?" the doctor asked as she came out from checking on Chloe.

"I’m her partner", I said but I knew that she already told her that I’m dead.

That little brat!!

"But isn’t he?" she asked.

"No, we are basically having arguments which is why she lied about me", I somehow handled the situation but again she handed me her reports and said, "I already told her before but let me tell you again."

"Her body is fragile and her stress is not lessening." she said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I already told her to lessen the amount of stress she is having but I think that led her to almost miscarriage."

I clenched my fist hearing.

"I have no idea what is going on with you two but if you are cozy and happy together then she can deliver her child safely otherwise I can’t say what will happen."

"She can again reach the stage of miscarriage again or she may have complications while giving birth. She may die as well."

Hearing about her death made me see dark clouds in front of me.

No, she can’t die.

I may sacrifice the child but not her.

"How about abortion?" I suggested even though my palm kept on getting sweaty.

"You really want to?" she asked again.

"I’m not sure but as long as it won’t harm her, I can do anything." I spoke.

She let out a paper and handed it to me.

"It is the abortion papers. So, when you decide then come back to me." she said but I’m not sure what I should do.

I don’t want a child who will kill her. But how could I tell this to her? Is she going to hate me if she hears I want to kill the child? I’m not sure again.

Chloe, will you forgive me if I do this?

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