Chapter 118: 118

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"Chloe", I called her slowly while she was in sleep.

"Get up, it is already morning", I blow near her ear.

"I don’t want to", her voice sounded so cute. She even came to me and held me by my waist. Her head was on my lap while her both hands went to my thigh as if she felt it was her body pillow.

"Baby, it is dangerous", I slowly said but still she didn’t wake up. I kept on staying in that pose. I couldn’t even move an inch in case I hit her accidently if I move in this position but this is getting too much for me.

Her breath hitting me even though I’m wearing my jeans. Her fingertips made me tingle even though it was not only in my thigh but her hand moving near my crotch making me grow harder.

"Chloe"

"Mm", she responded.

"Will you loosen your grip?"

"I won’t", I have no idea what kind of dream she is having but now I could never bear it if she acted like this.

I pinned her down while she looked at me, finally opening her eyes. She looked shocked but as well her face turned red letting me know she was dreaming about me. It is not a normal dream but a hot sensational dream about me.

"What were you dreaming, baby?" I gently spoke.

"I wasn’t dreaming of anything. Now get over me." she said but she wasn’t even struggling. I held her hand so loose but she wasn’t letting her free. Her legs are free to use but she is not hitting me as if she does want me but her anger stopping her from coming closer to me until I finally grasp her lips.

I let her hands free. I cupped her face and kissed her like a beast while her fingers were pulling my hair but she too was pulling me closer by holding the collar of my shirt.

"Mm", she moaned inside my mouth.

My hand went on its own to her panty. I slightly rubbed her above the panty but it was completely soaked in her juice. As I separated her panty, I could clearly see the string connecting her flower to panty , making her hide her face with embarrassment.

"What is this baby?"

"You wanted me this much?" I teased her.

"I didn’t." she replied instantly but her expression didn’t match her words making me kiss those lips of her again. I know it is only nine o’clock in the morning but we were in bed trying to get closer to each other on our first day of stay here.

James, you lost it. I can say this girl is dancing you around her finger.

I sped up the pace of my fingers thrusting in and out of her flowers while her moan went loud echoing the entire room. This is the best I ever had of her in these years of our relationship. I have no idea how she moaned. I have no idea how she was acting under me when she drugged me to have this child but I do regret not being able to see this side of her where I needed to be conscious.

"Love me", I saw a scene in front of me of her extending her hands toward me.

"Love me the way you want."

"Pour all of your love inside me."

"I want you, James."

"I love you."

All of sudden I started getting every expression of her dancing right in front of me while I wasn’t even in the sense of letting go of her lips which tasted extremely delicious.

"J-James’ ’, she moaned my name while her droll kept on dropping and placing on the pillow.

"Yes, baby", I said and get up from her.

"What? Why did you stop?" she asked with her dumb founded expression.

"So, you wanted it?" I tried to tease.

"Do I have to say?" she glared at me.

I again made a mistake. I knew she did want me still, why did I stop? I knew she did want to touch me; I knew she did want to kiss me and me being inside her then why did I stop?

Questions dancing inside my head.

"If you don’t want to, you can tell me, why did you have to act? I didn’t go to you to come love me, come have sex with me then why are you acting like this as if I’m the whore and tried to seduce you the way you said it before?" she shouted, making me flinch.

"I didn’t", I said but she got up from bed and went inside the washroom.

I was still sitting there on the bed waiting for her while it took almost an hour for her to come out. I kept on hearing the water sound until I saw her face. Her eyes were red from crying which hurt me even more.

I thought if she were with me, I can take care of her better but I’m only messing with her life. She is crying even more than before. She is shouting even more than before even though the reason is only me. I do want to make love to her but I’m scared that it will hurt her. What if it will be serious from inside because of the situation she is already facing because of her stress?

But I became even more far from her.

"What did you make for me?" she asked while she was drying her hair.

"Um, come see it yourself", I said and took her to the dining room but she didn’t sound so excited.

"You like sweets, right?" I asked but she didn’t answer but she came and sit in the seat of mine where I kept my food which is completely different then her.

I prepared some rice and curry which I like. It is spicy with the tint of sautéed mushroom in the curry.

"I will have this", she said and started eating without any issue.

"Do you like spicy food?" I asked.

"No, it is temporary", she said with a straight face.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Because of a certain someone I kept on craving spicy food even though I like sweets. Even though I tried to eat sweets I ended up throwing up whenever I tried." she said reminding me yeah sometime it happens.

"So, is it because of me?" I asked.

"Is there anyone else who made me pregnant?" She looked at me with her poker face which she had been trying to maintain from the moment she came out from the shower but as I went beside her and rubbed her tummy and started talking to the baby, I saw her little smile.

"Baby, can you hear me?" I asked while placing my ear on her tummy.

"So, you call him baby as well?" she asked, making me chuckle.

"Are you jealous, baby?"

"I? Jealous? Don’t make jokes." she looked at the other sides.

"But it seems like you are. Just look at me and say you are not jealous", I held her chin and made her look at me while she was looking away continuously. I never saw her shy before. When we were in school, she was always so straight forward. She even stopped to kiss me in front of the entire school which made me fall for her. But now that I see her more I’m becoming more fascinated about her.

She can be really a good mother.

No, I forgot I got the abortion form for her.

Should I talk to her?

Should I ask her if she can drop the child? Should I? I’m getting scared of her reaction.

"Chloe", I called her.

"Hm", she looked at me.

"I need to talk to you about something." I spoke.

"Yeah ,’’ she answered.

"What if you miscarried the baby?" I asked while looking away.

"No no, don’t think bad of me. I’m not thinking bad but I’m saying in case something happens again and you lose the baby. Then what will you do?" I asked.

"James, do you hate me that much?" she spoke with a sad tone.

"What?"

"I know you think I’m bad but how could you talk like that to your own child? How could you think that I will miscarry the baby when we are staying together just for him? Or you don’t want that baby?" she said.

"Tell me!! I want to hear."

"Tell me what you feel about this!"

She kept on asking but when I think of the doctor’s advice, I just can’t say I want him. No , Chloe is important, not him. We can have another baby in future but if she gives birth to him then she will...

"James", she called my name.

"What if I say I want you to drop the baby?"

It hurts.

It freaking hurt like crazy.

It hurts.

Chloe, it hurts.

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