Chapter 119: 119

"What if I say I want you to drop the baby?"

I’m getting scared even though I said it out loud. I kept seeing her lips but I still prayed to her to not say a single word. I hope she just stays silent then says nothing. I hope she gets angry at me but doesn’t say anything.

"Ok"

She spoke? Yeah, it is her voice.

"W-what?" my lips tremble.

"I said I’m agreeing for the abortion", she said. She is not even showing any sign of emotion.

"Chloe, you can think properly." I said in a calm tone but from inside I’m scared even more than how I am looking from outside.

"No, you said to drop the baby so I will do it."

"Tell me when do you want me to do it? I’m ready whenever you wish." she said while taking little bites from her food.

"Chloe"

"Yes, James", she replied instantly.

No no this doesn’t seem ok at all. This is not at all ok. She is trying to scare me like this. I’m sure she is joking. Yeah, I’m sure she is joking.

"You are joking with me, right?" I asked again.

"Joke? Why would I?" she answered but she didn’t look bothered at all.

"Because-

"Because...tell me why?" she asked without thinking at all.

"You are angry with me?" I spoke.

"Angry with you? Why? I see no reason for you to be angry with you. Or is there?" she asked.

"Because I told you to drop the child", my voice lowered.

"So?"

"You are mad with me because of that", I said.

"As I said, why would I be mad with you when there isn’t anything to get mad with you. If you think I’m getting mad because of the baby then let me clarify." she said.

She placed the spoon on the table surface and said, "I have no right with the baby."

I clenched my fist.

"I got pregnant because of you in the first place."

"If it weren’t you, I don’t think I could have gotten pregnant by myself so it is all you. If you think about your child then it sure would be good for him. Who am I to oppose?" she smiled.

I got goosebumps.

"Chloe", I called her name again.

"Can I go to my room? I feel like sleeping." she yawned, making me believe as if she was really tired but I still wanted to hold on to her and say no she has full right to say that about the child. She doesn’t need to listen to me but I couldn’t.

I couldn’t make my heart hurt like crazy.

"Your medications?" I brought a useless topic to stop her.

"Oh medicines? I don’t think I need to take those anymore." she said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Aren’t we aborting the child? Then why should I take medicine for his good health? Eventually he will die." my blood boil hearing her saying so inhumanly.

"Chloe, how could you say this?" I shouted almost.

"What? Did I say something wrong?" She acted all clueless.

"You said the child will be dead anyway."

"Yeah, do you think after abortion the child will be alive? Or can children born outside of the womb?" she asked while I again stayed silent.

"Could you bring the abortion paper too? I want to sign it as fast as I can. You brought it right?" she asked.

"Ah y-yeah", I stuttered.

"Ok, so bring it to my room", she said and walked inside.

I left behind while seeing her walking away from me. All I could see was her back which hurt me but I couldn’t express what I wanted.

I went to my room and picked up that paper from the drawer I kept in.

"Should I really give it to her?" I thought.

"No no no I know she is hurt and if I continue to do so she will leave. She will never return to me." I kept on mumbling to myself when I instantly found her near the door of my room. I was startled.

"C-Chloe", I said her name.

"Yeah, it is me. Why are you getting scared? Are you doing drug or what?" she chuckled.

She can laugh?

"Ah no", I said.

"So, I can come inside, right?" she asked.

"Yeah, you don’t need to ask", I said.

"Why not? It is your room so how could I just enter without asking you? It is only you and your wife can do, unlike me." she looked away but she was still forcing a smile.

"What are you talking about? You are m-

Before I could finish, she again interrupted me. I don’t know why my sentences were breaking without letting me fix through my words but now it has started bugging me. I’m in so freaking pain which is getting hard for me to bear. It is getting hard for me to hear her sentences which are nothing but a bunch of hurtful sentences which she tells me with a forced smile.

"Where is it? I want to sign", she looked for the paper in a bunch of whole files of mine.

"It is in my hand", I showed her while she didn’t even read the paper properly but signed it.

"Chloe, read it first", I said.

"Why? It has nothing but some procedure about the doing." she signed eventually.

"Chloe, what are you doing?" I made her sit at the table.

"What? I’m just following your steps." she said.

"Do you have nothing to say to me?" I asked again.

"What? Is there anything you want me to say? But why can’t I remember? Did I lose my memory?" she again acted weird making me massage my temple.

"Chloe"

"Yeah, say what you want to? I will follow you." she smiled again.

What should I do? What the fuck should I do? This is not the Chloe I want. My Chloe never behaved this way but she seems like a different person now. Why? Is this my fault? No, it can’t be. All I’m doing to save her. Yeah, if the child dies then she will survive. I can spend my entire life with her that way.

Yeah, I’m not wrong.

"Are you thinking of something?" She came to stand straight in front of me, making me startled.

"Ah nothing", I replied.

"Then should we go to hospital?" she asked.

"Yeah? What?"

"What did you say again?"

"I said let’s go to the hospital. The sooner the better." she said.

"Chloe, come to your senses!!!! It is not like you. Look at me!! Then say what you want!!!!" I’m being forceful now but I can’t control. In an hour I almost messed up the entire situation for her and me also. It has been freaking an hour.

"What? What do you want me to say? If I say what I want, does it matter? Have you ever listened to me? Ever? I don’t remember if you ever did that so I decided to do things your way. Even if it is hurting myself, killing myself or Is it just hang myself. Can you hear me?" she said.

I took my step backward.

"So, let’s go and get over this. The sooner the better."

"And I will let the child know that his father was the one after his life. So that he could imagine you making him. So that he could imagine who was strangling him. What do you say? You’re satisfied right?" she asked. This time she came forward toward me until I hit the wall.

"C-Chloe"

"Yeah, it is Chloe. So, let’s just end it the way you said it. Let just end everything here then you are on your way and I will be on my way. Even if one day we both face each other we will act like we don’t know. So, let’s keep it that way."

"Chloe"

"Yeah, and now I too aware why you backoff having sex with me. I just didn’t know you were plotting all this till now so I know your reasons very well. So, let’s get over it." she said and started wearing her boots.

She looked at me.

"What are you waiting for? Go and get ready. We are leaving right now and right this instant." she said while in a few minutes I was standing outside of my place while holding her hand.

I kept on sweating even though it is fucking cold here.

She looked at me and smiled whenever I stole looks from her but I’m not sure.

I’m not sure about anything.

"Shall we?" she said.

I drove the car toward the hospital. The tires screech letting me know I didn’t change the tires.

"It is snowing too much. Can we go tomorrow?" I suggested.

"No, I can call cabs so you let your car stay here." She didn’t even waste a single minute while the cab was standing in front of us and taking us toward the hospital.

I’m scared.

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