Chapter 127: 127
"Tell me what have I done that made you blame me?" I asked.
"I’m here standing in front of you so that there won’t be a next time for you to ask me. And also I’m not running away. So do it." I said.
"You eat first!" I can’t believe he is saying this.
I wanted to laugh but I didn’t.
"Why do my eating concern you? You just need to say what you have done to make you blame me for it. Do your way, why care about what I eat or not.`` I said. I’m still standing on the other side of the kitchen component.
"You didn’t have anything in the morning", he muttered but I heard.
"Just stop repeating the same thing!!!!! I’m tired of it!!!!!" I burst.
Yeah I did. I no longer was standing on the other side but walked toward him crossing the distance holding his shirt.
"Ha what are you repeating for a while? Are you trying to show your stupid concern to me? Ha are you? Then where was your concern when I was out for two days? Were you dead at that time? Or your ego hurt you to contact me? That time you didn’t know you had someone to take care of? You didn’t?" I asked question after question.
"But you didn’t stop", I can’t believe he is still saying.
"Oh because i didn’t stop your fucking male ego hurted right? Because you ordered me and i didnt stay?"
"Yeah I should have understood what you think from the way you said I don’t need to do my job. I should have tried to figure out what was the issue but I ignored it until this day. And you are telling me I didn’t stop? I can’t believe you Mr. James Lee. I really can’t believe you think so low of me. I can’t believe you made me feel so dirty that I never ever felt in my entire life."
"You know what, when I decided to leave I still told you in the call if you come to receive me I will be really happy but what did you do? Ha, look what you did? Didn’t you say you are not like Aaron? Didn’t you say you were never going to make me feel alone when I needed you? But look what you did? You destroyed everything. You fucking destroyed everything."
"You shattered me into pieces."
"You broke me unlike before."
"Ch-loe"
He still took my name but i did not responded.
"There was standing in the snow till ten o’clock even when the taxi started stopping. If it were n’t for the good old lady I think I would have frozen to death there." I said.
I didn’t cry. Yeah I didn’t cry at all even though my heart was breaking. I never knew his male ego was thinking this way. I never knew he would make me feel this way. I really never knew until I went through this.
"I will shift tomorrow", I said.
"What? Where will you go?" he hurried and asked.
"Wherever I go, why is it your concern?" I asked.
"Chloe, your situation is not normal." he brought up this topic.
"Yeah I know but don’t think I will not let you meet the baby when he comes to this world. So till then let me be on my own because I don’t want to see your face at all."
"Whenever I see your face it reminds me of that night when I was dying. It reminds me of this morning’s scene when you were having fun all alone while I was dying. So please don’t come to me."
I started walking toward my room while holding the plate of my food.
"Oh wait yeah there was one more thing i wanted to say." I turned back.
I inserted my hand in my back pocket and let out two pairs of rings which I actually bought from a stall which were clearly handmade from wood and there were tiny stones placed on the ring which were blue.
"I thought I would finally propose to you to marry me on Christmas but see what I’m doing." I slipped those rings out of my hand. I don’t know where it fall but my heart sure was in a lot of pain clenching me deep inside like a crab moving its hands and letting my blood flow.
"Chloe, don’t leave me!" he said.
I didn’t respond but went to my room.
But who is going to say I’m hurting even more than him. I thought I forgot everything that happened in the past because he loved me all over to make me forget all those bad memories of mine but who would have thought he would make me remember everything all over.
"I hate you."
"I hate you alot."
"Yeah I hate you alot."
At morning
I woke up rubbing my eyes.
"Miss"
Someone was knocking on my door.
I got up and went to open the door.
"What?" I didn’t even see who it was because my eyes weren’t opening properly.
I didn’t realize what happened but I felt a touch on my hand. I hurried and forcefully opened my eyes even though it kind of triggered my head ache.
"What the hell are you doing, James?" I shouted, letting my hand pull from him.
I noticed I was wearing the same ring I bought. Didn’t I throw it last night? Then how?
"Were you searching for it all night?" he didn’t answer.
"I’m asking you something, you goddamn asshole", my anger going out of my control.
He nodded finally.
I massaged my forehead.
"Have you lost it ! or trying to get sympathy from me?"
"No I didn’t." he said in a low tone.
"Then why did you? Did I ask you? Did I beg you? Did I request you? No right? Then why the fuck did you do? Trying to annoy me or trying to let me know you love me a lot and i ’ m the bad one.’’ I asked.
"I...."
"What I? Tell me you fucking idiot!!" I held his collar again.
He didn’t answer.
"Ok don’t. Eventually i ’m going to pull it out and throw.’’ I glared. I can see his startled expression which I don’t care about.
He is the one who made me this way. He always made me feel so fucking pathetic that i could kill my self eventually. I may have started acting toxic already but still I ’ m not going to stop. It is more like I don’t know how to stop.
"Chloe"
"I’m really sorry."
"Forgive me!!"
"I... m sure it was my ego who didn’t contact you out of my anger but I swear I never intend to make you stop working. Please!!! Please!! Don’t leave me!!", he continuously looked down.
I felt bad but I didn’t answer. I didn’t say anything either.
I’m sure if I speak I will melt, which I don’t want.
"Let me be alone."
"I want to be alone."
I said and locked the door.
I again ended up finding myself alone but soon I got Aaron’s call on my phone. I wonder if the word spreaded this fast. Not sure but I received the call.
"Yeah speak", i sounded hell rude.
"Chloe, you alright?" That was his first sentence.
"Why do you ask if I’m alright or not?" I asked.
"Because James was crying." It shocked me. He cried. I’m not imagining right?
"Don’t try to convince me by taking sides with your brother. Or i will make you remind how Ayla was alone because of you.`` I don’t care anymore about whoever I try to make angry.
"No no I ’ m not taking sides but he sure was crying calling me. I was shocked at how he called me. I thought he was drunk or something but then he started saying Chloe is leaving me. Which made me worried."
"Tell me is everything alright? Or he was really drunk?" he still tried to confirm with me.
"No"
"Everything is not right."
"And he really proved like all guys are trash, complete trash." I’m acting like an emo.
"Chloe, what are you saying? Are you drunk as well? Gosh what is with you two? Are you really alright or just trying to make me lose my mind with you ? Tell me!!!!" he asked.
I took a deep breath.
"You know the way Ayla behaved when you were not present at that time and she almost died?" I asked.
He stayed silent.
"Yeah i know you will stay silent now but you wont believe he made me feel the same just because i didn’t do as he said."
"He literally made me feel as if i dont even fucking exist for two freaking day.’’ I said.
"What are you saying?" he finally replied.
"I actually got a call from my workplace saying I needed to come as it was urgent. But when I asked him, he denied I still went but I told him that if he comes to pick me up in the meanwhile I will be really happy. But... he didn’t call. He didn’t come but I was standing under snow till ten o’clock. I was freezing to death."
"And when I came he was having fun."
"Isn’t it funny?"
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