Chapter 15: 15

"What’s with all these noises?" I asked as soon as I opened my eyes.

"Oh that your dad and brother are talking outside", the nurse said.

I didn’t have any memories of before. I don’t even have an idea why I was laying here.

"Umm... sister, why am I here?" I asked in a low tone.

"You fainted, so a guy brought you here then we informed your parents", she said.

"Oh thanks", I said and got up from bed. I don’t feel pain anywhere, so it was easy for me to get up and walk. But I slowly went near the door when I heard their conversation.

"Why didn’t you look after her?" it was dad’s voice.

"Dad... this time it is not my fault", he said, making me want to hear more.

"What?"

"Dad, I know you still think what happened back then was my fault, but you forget I can take care of her outside of class but not inside", Brother said.

Dad was still silent. While I don’t know where the conversation is going.

"Dad, why don’t you look at me the way you look at her?" I wasn’t even expecting this question. So is it my fault that they are arguing? I didn’t have any idea that my brother felt like this.

As he finished his sentence, I was standing in front of them. Dad tried to come to me in a panic, but I stopped him.

"I’m ok dad", I smiled brightly.

"I’m going to school", I said and sauntered away. I thought I was about to go to school alone, but I saw James when I turned toward the exit. He ran toward me and supported me when I remembered a memory.

I heard someone crying, calling my name. I remember someone held me when I was about to fall.

But who is it? Is he that person? If he is that person, then I want to say my feelings by opening my arm even if I’m going to get discarded or rejected?

I thought for a long time. He brought me to school in his cycle the way we came in the morning. It was refreshing, but the moment he dropped me near my classroom, I stopped him.

"What? You need something?" he asked.

"No, but I need to ask you something", I said.

"Was it you who took me to the hospital?"

There was a long pause between our conversations. I, too, was waiting patiently for his answer, which was taking my breath away.

"Why do you want to know?" he asked me instead.

"No reason", I hid.

"So tell me, was it you who brought me to the hospital?" I asked again.

"Ah yeah, it was Me," he said, looking away.

"You need to ask something else?" he waited for me to speak.

"Yeah, Will you be my boyfriend?" I said it.

Yeah, I said it. But I don’t seem to get the excitement which I should. But sorrow kept choking me from the inside. Is it because I hear brother and dad’s conversation? Maybe it is.

"What did you say?" he asked.

"I clearly said what you hear, so will you be my boyfriend?" I said again.

"You think through this, right?"

"I thought about this long ago. I was thinking about this too when you told me you would have never had feelings for a kid, so it’s been pretty long." I smiled.

"Were you serious back then?" he again asked.

"I’m not sure, but my diary clearly stated I had feelings for you even more than before. You stated me as a kid."

"And the way you said you met me through Jace was a lie." his facial expression changed.

"How? You?"

"Didn’t I say diary?"

"What more did you read?"

"Nothing so your answer?" I asked.

He glanced at my back and left without giving me an answer.

I turned to see who it was but I found Aaron standing behind me.

"Hey", I said with a smile.

"Hey, you ok?" his voice was low.

"Yeah, but I don’t remember what made me end up in the hospital?" I felt embarrassed.

"You didn’t?"

"Yeah, I don’t."

He didn’t say anything else while I went and sat in my place.

No one ever bothered me about how I’m? Why did I go to the hospital in the middle of the school and all? I’m alone here. Aaron sits beside me, but he too feels far. He makes me feel those feelings which I am even unaware of. If there is something I could explain, this man is nothing but an empty shell.

Wait a minute!!

I read something similar to this in my diary.

My old self wrote she had a person in class who made her feel the weird sensation, but he was nothing. But how could it be so similar? No, no, I’m sure both are different. Why would he come here when he was studying in another school? Is there any reason?

I turned toward him, but as soon as he saw me, I looked away.

I looked at him again but he caught me this time.

"What are you doing?"

"You have something to ask?"

"Ummm....

"Speak what you have to ask?" he asked.

"I wanted to ask, have you been to Y high school?" yeah I asked.

"Why do you ask?"

"Nothing I felt like", I said.

"You don’t need to know about all this," he said.

I again ended up turning toward my books.

"Did you fall for him?" He caught me off guard.

"What?"

"It’s just what you heard. Did you fall for him?" he asked me.

I completely stayed silent. I didn’t want to answer this.

"Hey, I’m asking something", he asked me and pulled me toward him.

"It’s hurting me", I tried to pull my hand away.

"Tell me!!! Did you fall for him?" he again asked, making me shout.

"Yeah, I fell for him. Did you have enough? Or do you want me to shout again and again and tell you yeah I freaking fell for him? Enough!!!"

I lose my mind.

I looked at him but his facial expression was not visible to me. It was completely hidden. He hid it while I tried to see it. It made me feel as if I made some mistake.

After school, I didn’t see James. I walked toward his class, but I had to face Jace instead. He tried to come close to me but I turned my back on him as if I had once done it but brutally which will hurt me, not him.

I again walked toward the entrance but I saw dad was already there. He too tried to talk to me but I walked away but no one followed me nor did they bother to disturb me. That’s how I ended up at home where mom was waiting outside.

"Ayla, I heard you fainted again. Are you ok? You are not feeling uncomfortable anywhere, right?" she kept asking, but I again walked away

I lost count of just how many people I turned my back on today.

No matter what I think, my brother who will graduate from high school in 2 months said he was jealous of me. How could he say that when dad always helped him file his forms of childhood to till now, but in my time, dad always stayed busy and Jace ended up helping me? How could he say that? Dad doesn’t look at him the way he does to me? How?

"Ayla, stop", Jace called me when I was climbing stairs.

I stopped as he said.

I waited for him to say so I didn’t even turn toward him.

"Ayla, talk to me", he said as if I’m making him cry.

I again didn’t reply.

"Ayla, I’m sorry", but this is not what I was expecting.

"Ayla, I know you are behaving like this because of what you heard, but please trust me, it is not like that." He said.

I finally turned toward him when mom looked at me all dumbfounded.

"What do you expect me to say?" I asked.

"I want you to not misunderstood Me." he said.

I steal another glance toward mom.

"You know that time I said when mom asked me if I hate her. You know what I answered her?" I said.

Mom looked down.

"I answered her. I don’t hate her nor love her, as I never remember spending much time with her."

I added, "And I told her it was Dad and you who I always find in any situation of mine." He smiled, but I know that won’t be a stay for long.

"But today everyone made me feel wrong. Now I’m clearly saying that it was none who was with me without having alternative thoughts, but it was myself who cling on to you despite being everything. And at last I’m really sorry to make you feel I’m taking dad’s feelings away from you."

"I’m truly ashamed of that."

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