Chapter 21: 21

I kept listening to him and I realized how foolish mom was to run after someone who didn’t even bother to spare a glance at her. Wasn’t it a useless marriage life mom had? I don’t know what got to her but if I look at my situation, I’m not less than her.

Flashback

Today I’m late for school. I ran to my classroom but still, I can’t believe I was again surrounded by those clingy girls who don’t even bother with my comfort. I somehow got out of there and entered my classroom, but as soon as my eye fell on a particular person, I felt as if my eyes were blinded by the brightness coming out from her. I kept looking at others, but everyone looked all the same but I couldn’t shake my eyes from her. My heart beat louder, making me sweat for no reason.

I tried to walk to my seat, but I couldn’t move my eyes from her for no reason. I know if someone sees me they will think I’m a creep or she will think I’m bad, but I’m moving by my instinct, which is making it hard to behave on my own.

I was still trying to get a hold of myself when she looked at me too, making my heart skip a beat. Gosh, is she some kind of witch who has come to bewitch me? If not, why am I becoming enchanted just looking at her? How are you? What are you making me feel? Who are you?

My insides kept asking me questions but I couldn’t utter the questions out of my lips when I heard someone calling her name Freya.

"You can sit with me", she said, but I wanted to tell her she is not a beneficial influence, but how? She doesn’t even know me and if I say it will make me even worse.

But I could feel her gaze on me.

"Hey, look the new girl kept gazing at Aaron", someone said I could hear that too.

"Yeah, maybe she is too enchanted by his beauty", yeah that is when I shut my feelings. I never want the one I love to come to me because of my face.

I kept ignoring her existence as much as I could. Even though I couldn’t cope with my heart, I still tried as much as I could. I sometimes steal glances from her but I was in control. That’s how time passed and it crossed one month after she came to this school.

I even tried many times to go to her and talk but I didn’t have enough courage. When she had lunch alone in the classroom, I looked at her through the opposite window, which was completely focused on her. When the sun’s rays fall on her face, she shines like a diamond as if she is a vampire who has skin, which shines because of sun rays.

"What the hell are you thinking, Aaron? Get a hold of yourself", I said to myself.

Then one day

I came to the classroom when she was surrounded by Freya and her friends.

"You know her brother from class 11th dropped dead grass", Freya said.

"Is it?"

"Yeah"

"Then why is Ayla not like this", they said.

What the hell are they even saying? I almost snapped.

"I don’t know, but she is nothing like him. Who knows, maybe she is the illegitimate child of the family", they said and laughed.

I kept clenching my fist while staying far away, but then I heard a loud voice. I instantly ran toward them and found Ayla fell on the floor and her head was injured too. I didn’t even give it much thought, but held her in my arms and ran toward the infirmary. She was so light, and this is the first time I saw her so close. Her eyes were all swollen. Just how much did she cry? I wiped her tears from the corner of my eyes but she flinched.

I didn’t waste any more time but placed her on the bed. I didn’t see who occupied the other bed, but soon the nurse came and checked on her.

"Aaron, what are you doing with this girl?" one of my friends came and said.

"Can’t you see?" I was rude.

"Yeah, I can see but now when you brought her to the infirmary I don’t think there is any place for you here. Don’t you also think the same?" he said.

My place? Is she going to be happy if she wakes up and sees me? I don’t think so.

"Listen, she doesn’t like you. I heard her muttering, calling you a shell who has nothing but a face." As soon as he said that, I felt an ache.

"So even if you have a crush on her, just forget it. Ok?" he said and pulled me with him.

I don’t know what happened after that but the day again continued and again I found a chance to get close to her as I was the class president.

"Your copy?" I asked. That was the first time I said something to her, even if it was regarding the class.

While I was standing beside her, she searched for her note but she didn’t find it. I could see how much she was panicking, but suddenly she said, "I got my note, but now I’m unable to find it."

I could feel her panic, but no one had proof to say yeah. She brought the note. Freya and her friends made fake claims, insulting her in front of the entire class, but still, I couldn’t do anything for her. But later I went to hand notes to the teacher so I do not know what happened afterwards. Still, I tried hard to reach her but on my way I got hit by a person with a knee injury, making me admitted to the infirmary.

When I saw her through the curtains, I was still waiting to be discharged. I don’t know if she was aware it was me but she continuously spoke about her pain and cried nonstop, making me feel bad too, but when I was on my off guard I felt her lips above me. I’m sure it was above the curtain, but still, I felt her lips soft, making me want to pull her toward me and kiss those lips properly, but I didn’t. It was all in my imagination.

She again loses her consciousness.

But my ears were burning from her touch. I could feel her palm above mine making me feel a jolt in my entire body. That was my first time experiencing something like that. She was always my first. My first love, my first to drive me insane and my first kiss too.

I couldn’t describe the way I’m feeling, but now I keep wanting to look at her at 24 *7, which is not possible.

I laid her on the bed and went to class, but I kept looking toward the door for her to come. It almost took hours but when she came she didn’t say anything but sit on her seat like a doll because Freya again did something. I tried to stop, but it was all in vain. But things got worse than when her brother came to her.

Freya finally told him to meet later, but after that, her life became miserable. She pierce her nails on her skin when Ayla raised her voice. I wanted to stop her but if I got involved, dad would go to school and all my plans would be in vain hiding my age till now.

It was tough for me as well as painful to bear to see her bleed, cry and then look dead when things ended.

I couldn’t bear it so went behind the school and waited there for hours when I saw Jace and Freya coming. But in a few minutes, Ayla was there too, but she was even more miserable than before. She was about to burst into tears, but I pulled her to my arm and hid her face. I felt my shirt turning wet, but I didn’t mind letting her cry as much as she could. But she again ran away from me, pushing me.

After that day, I kept waiting for her at school for weeks, but I didn’t get to see her. Each time I come to school, I first run to class in case I find her sitting in her seat looking toward the window, but each time was a disappointment for me.

"Ayla, where are you?"

"I miss you, damn it."

That was the first time I realized I had already fallen for her hard when my eye fell on her.

It took me a long time to understand she was my first love.

"Aaron", I was in my world when the teacher called.

"Did you know about the absence of Ayla White?" she asked, but I denied it.

"Ok, go to her home and give her your note", she said.

It was a hell of an opportunity for me.

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