Chapter 30: 30

I kept spouting nonsense in the daytime as if I had lost my leftover brain cells or someone was again making me go crazy. I don’t know which it is, but from the moment I saw this guy, everything seemed weird.

"It’s ok, I can go home myself", I said, pushing him away, but again those broad hands supported me and pulled me even closer than I was before.

What are these feelings?

Why does he seem so close yet so far as if he is present with me, but he is not? Is it because I know he has someone he loves, but I’m dying to get between them because I’m so freaking lonely and I don’t want this loneliness to disappear from my side? What is it?

Ayla, you have lost it.

I again pushed him away and started walking in the middle of the road. I can’t seem to keep my feet steady. My feet keep moving here and there and I could see the people’s eyes on me, which are quite intimidating.

"Ayla, stay. I will take you wherever you want to go", Xenon said and followed me, but I kept moving forward until again he pulled me toward him.

"Didn’t I say to stop? Why are you not listening to me?" he said, but again he mumbled something I wasn’t able to hear.

"What did you say?" I asked.

"Nothing", he replied and threw me on his shoulder, making me scream.

"Hey, where are you taking me? I didn’t agree with that term." I screamed, hitting his back.

"Yeah, I was too aware of that so we should have a contract before you could ask something like this again", he said.

"But leave me now", I said when a spank landed on my butt making me silent.

I realized I shouldn’t behave like this. I’m glad this is not a public place or it would have been hell embarrassing for me to deal with it.

"Oh, it seems you are all sober, Miss. Ayla White", he smirks, making me annoyed.

"Don’t you dare try to make rules on me", I said in a low tone.

"But still I feel as if it is working well", he smiled.

I didn’t say anything and followed him obediently until he took me to his place. It takes time, but he drove faster than I expected.

When I came down, I saw it was an enormous villa, just like the last time I saw it in my childhood.

James’s house looked the same, but it sure gives me a painful memory and also reminds me of my pathetic mistake, which I have done in the past.

"What?"

"Why did you stop there?" He looked at me.

"Oh nothing", I said and followed him inside.

To be honest, the place was enormous, but there were none. I wonder how he lives in this entire place where there is none.

"Ah", I stopped, but he asked.

"You want to ask something?"

"Why is there no one here?" I asked, hesitating as if I will make another mistake if I ask anything right now.

"Why? Are you expecting something? Like my parents?" he asked, almost making me freeze. That is when I realized I sure made a mistake asking that. I could feel my palm turning cold, filling with sweat.

"Ah no", I somehow said.

"Ha ha ok or I thought maybe you too were expecting my parents just like all who are after my money", he said, making me look down.

I’m sure we are just partners for a while.

I know this relationship is nothing but based on our feelings being substitutes for each other which will be only physical but still I kept wanting more as if nothing else is mattering to me other than the feeling I get from rubbing each other’s sweat skin which is warm enough to burn every desire.

Gosh, this is driving me insane.

I reached near the couch, placed it in the hall and sat when he handed me over the lemon juice as if he was used to it.

"So from now on tell me how much alcohol you can take or I don’t know when you will end up being drunk and I will not be with you to take care of yourself", he said, making me chuckle.

"It is not like you are my boyfriend or anything", I know my words are like him but I don’t want him to rule over me too as I can’t do that as well.

"Yeah right", it was awkward.

"So", I stopped.

"So?" he too stopped.

"What next?"

"Next?"

"Yeah, about the contract you talked about on our way", I said.

"Oh yeah, do you remember? I thought you will only remember the spank", he laughed, making my entire face flush.

While I was calming myself, he went and bought a pen and paper from his study. He wrote whatever term he wanted to keep and then handed it to me.

PARTY A SHOULDNT INTERFERE IN PARTY B’S PERSONAL SPACE

PARTY A AND PARTY B SHOULD SHOW OUTSIDE LIKE A COUPLE

THE RELATIONSHIP SHOULD BE FOR A YEAR AND THE PARTY A SHOULDN’T ASK ANYTHING ABOUT PERSONAL INFORMATION OR TRY TO BRIDGE THE LINE

I kind of expected the terms but now after reading, I feel as if I’m the one at a disadvantage and will get hurt by the end but still I want to say yes so that I won’t be alone for a year. So that I won’t have random thoughts for a year.

"Do you agree?" he asked, making me snap out of my thoughts.

"Yeah I do", I said and signed immediately.

"So from-

He was about to say something. He was unable to speak after I kissed him. I don’t want any more hurtful words. I don’t want to hurt myself anymore, even if it is just for a while. I want to be happy.

Ayla, you can do it.

I snapped out of my thoughts and kept kissing his lips while he supported my waist and carried me to his room. We didn’t stop kissing even for a second but our tongues swirled while our eyes didn’t look away but kept it close as if trying to know each other’s next move but I failed.

His eyes are so freaking deep as if I will drown if I try to know more, but who knows if these eyes will make me drown in them or just suffocate me with his almighty.

"Didn’t I say to keep focusing on me, Miss. Ayla", he clearly said my name just for the first time in physical interaction.

"Didn’t you take me as a substitute?" I asked.

"Yeah, and her name is Ayla as well", as he said, my heart skipped a beat as if he was telling me.

As if he is whispering in my ears and telling me, yeah it’s you who I fell in love with, but again I know all of this is a sweet illusion that I will never want to wake up from.

I clasped my hand around his neck and continued kissing him until his phone rang.

I stopped.

"Is it important?" I asked in a low tone.

He shook his head as a no and again kissed me as if he was devouring me, but the phone kept ringing, making me annoyed as hell.

"Wait a minute!" he said and picked up his phone.

I was still waiting for him but his facial expression looked annoyed as if he was talking to someone he hates the most.

"Didn’t I say not to call and disturb me?"

"How much longer do you want to suck on my blood?"

"Will you stop if I just fucking die?"

He is yelling loudly, which is audible to me even if I’m standing far.

"Don’t you dare come here", He shouted but the other side hung up the call.

He slowly came toward me and said, "Maybe you should go home for now."

"But-

I stopped.

"Don’t forget the clause on the contract", he again drew a line.

I again felt an ache in my chest. It is painful as well, but I didn’t show a painful expression but smiled and walked away from the place. But the pain didn’t leave. It keeps staying in place intact.

"Why am I getting my hopes up again?"

"Did I forget what happened to me during such freaking times?"

"Did I forget what James did to me, even if I mistook my love for him?"

"Did I forget what the topper made me feel about who I trusted for the second time?"

"If I didn’t then why am I craving again?"

"Why?"

"Why?"

"Why?"

"It is getting annoying."

"It is making it hard to breathe still. I’m alive."

Tears came out of my eyes while I’m in the middle of the road. People kept staring at me but it didn’t bother me but I cried for a long time as if his words broke my heart again.

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