Chapter 43: 43

"Ayla"

"Come quick!!! We all are getting late for the prom", everyone called out to me while I just reached the destination.

It is like an experience for me. I never went to prom nor did I ever dance.

This time I thought maybe I can do it with Xen but things are different now. I didn’t talk with him for like a week. I didn’t message or call him nor he did from his side letting me know he can’t reciprocate both sides of his feelings.

"Ayla, what are you doing? Come quickly!!!!" Jenny called out but when I tried to go inside the guards stopped me.

"What?"

"You can’t go inside", they said.

"Why can’t I go inside?" I asked. I was fully up for an argument for real.

"The prom is for couples and if you have a partner we could let you go inside but not alone", they said.

"F-

I was about to say when Jenny stopped me.

"You are misunderstanding something."

"Her partner is already inside so she just needs to go inside."

"But I didn’t let anyone go alone." The guards are not stopping.

"I –

She was too unable to say anything at a point when I felt a hand on my shoulder startling me.

"Oh sorry baby I went out for a second", I turned to see when I found James looking at me with a forced smile.

"Didn’t you say her partner is inside? Were you lying?" the guard asked.

"Ah no-

"I went inside then came outside again for some reason", James said while we walked inside. His hands were on my waist grabbing them tightly.

"Who this?" Jenny asked while I stayed silent.

"Hey, say why are you so silent? Introduce me to the hotty!!!!"

I’m getting annoyed.

"He is no one", I replied but James didn’t stop.

He brought me to the dance floor and started dancing with me.

"Why did you lie?" I asked.

"Huh! Were you talking with me?" he asked.

"Is there anyone I know?"

"Ah no but I thought you were not interested in talking with me so I wondered why you were asking me."

I ignored him.

"Ah yeah you are asking something about me lying to you right? Then what did I lie?" He waited for me to answer.

"Didn’t you lie that Aaron is here? in this place?" I said while he tightened his grip around my waist pulling me closer than before.

"Didn’t I tell you to stop thinking about him? why are you still on that?"

"I will think or not it is my business, not yours so say why did you lie?"

"I didn’t lie", he looked away.

"If not, why are you looking away from me?" I asked.

"Whatever but I didn’t lie so stop searching for him", he said while I was about to ask more when the music stopped and the light turned off.

All of sudden a random hand came out of nowhere and pulled me with him. I wanted to scream but my voice was not coming out. It is not because I’m scared or something but he was covering my mouth.

"Ugh" I struggled for a few minutes but when I came to a bright place he removed his hand on my lips letting me speak.

"What the hell are you doing!!!!!!!" I shouted pushing him away from me when I realized it was Xenon.

"Xenon? Is it you?" I still find it hard to believe he did something like this.

"Yeah it is me or what did you think? Is it him? you replaced me in just a week don’t you?" His way of speaking was so mean for me to endure.

"Have you lost it?" my voice was low.

"Why would I lose? Aren’t you the one who is trying to make me lose myself?"

"Aren’t you the one who told me about breaking the agreement and now you were with him? dancing?

Do you think I will be happy with him holding your waist so close when it should always be me? you want me to bear seeing that?"

I massaged my temple because of annoyance.

"What? Did I annoy you now?"

"Stop it!!!"

"Why? Why should I stop?"

"Because the agreement you are talking about is all about the clause you have written it’s not like I wrote anything. It was the way you started marking a line between us so don’t blame me", I said and tried to get away but still somehow my heart saying stop me!!! don’t let me leave !!! even if I have to be in a toxic relationship.

"Yeah I know it was all the agreement but I did say if you don’t want to then even if you break the clause still the agreement won’t be null. Then why did you leave? Why are you with him? you fall out of feelings for me so easily?" he said again with the sorrowful voice.

I stopped and turned toward him.

"So you knew how I was holding my feelings right?"

"So you knew all along how much I was struggling to understand myself right?"

"And still agree?"

He stayed silent.

"Ayla, wait ! listen to me!" he tried to grab me but I snatched his hand.

" Don’t touch me!!!"

"Seeing you now makes me realise as if you never had feelings for me unless it’s your old lover Ayla unlike me."

"Ayla, stop there you know it’s not like that."

"I have no idea how I should express my feelings when I always struggle to express but what do you want me to say when I get confused with these shitty feelings growing inside me that I couldn’t understand?

I couldn’t express how many times I woke up from my dream and found that you and Ayla are similar."

He kept on saying.

"I too want to say I want to be with you but what if I will only find this feeling of attraction and tell you I can’t do this anymore? What will you do? Won’t you hate me even more than now? Tell me now what you want me to do. I will do it."

"I’m even agreeing to be your substitute until you figure out your feelings."

"I will walk away if one day the one you love returns."

"Will you bear it?"

"Tell me, Ayla!!!"

"Tell me!!!"

He kept on asking me when I pulled him by his collar and placed kisses all over him. I too agreed with what he said but I can’t ignore the fact how fast my heart beating for him made me unconscious. Just smelling his natural scent drives me insane making my legs weak all over.

What this guy has done to me I have no idea but I kept on being addicted to him.

I wanted to say what if my feelings are not only attractive but real?

What if the feeling is similar to how I feel when I think of Aaron then is it going to be like that I love both of them. Is it possible? I have no idea again but still, I want to love him again and again till I feel I need no more.

"Ayla", he softly called my name, unlike the other time.

This time it is sure that he is calling me not his lover. I too want to call both of them names but I just want to drown myself in this immense pleasure which I haven’t felt for long.

He held me gently and placed kisses all over my neck when I noticed he was looking toward a place.

"What are you looking at?" I asked.

"Ah no it’s nothing", he ignored me and again started loving me making me forget every worry.

He pulled me toward the dance floor and made me dance with him. His hands were circling me as if they were snakes and they kept on circling me as if they kept on caging me for some reason.

"You are mine, Ayla. And I’m not letting you go anywhere or anyone", he gently said while his eyes turned dark, making me scared.

What is going on?

What did I just see?

Is it my illusion?

What I saw was an illusion or he is the gentlest person I have ever seen.

We enjoyed ourselves to our heart’s content. Maybe it is the week’s worth or all I can say is that he is my home.

While I was thinking he caressed my head gently kissing my forehead.

"Lean on me more....

"Love me more... Even if it is just a replacement...

"Depend on me more....

He kept on saying while his voice was deep. But all I can see at this point I no longer think if it’s Xenon or Aaron as I kept falling for both unconditionally. Even if one day he will come, I don’t know if he will remember me or not. If he would come to me with his gf or not.

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