Chapter 44: 44

Xenon POV

"Shall I go", Ayla asked looking at me. I kept on holding her hand as if I didn’t want to let her go.

"Answer me", she asked me again, making me land in reality.

"Um to be honest I don’t want to let go of you but I know you have to go", I was looking down.

"Look at me", she said, holding my chin as if I’m the one playing the girl role here.

I have no idea how every time I look at her I find myself pulling toward her. I feel as if we have some kind of connection which keeps us closer to each other like the Chinese beliefs about their soulmate.

"Find me!!" I heard one giggle which made me turn back but I found none.

"Hey, where are you looking ?" Ayla again made me look at her but I could hear the giggle kept roaming inside me.

"Ah nothing, you have morning class, right? Then you should go we will meet tomorrow", I said and kissed her forehead.

"Yeah miss me a lot until it makes your heart ache", she chuckled.

I know I’m fully attracted to her but somewhere I feel as if I’m missing something. I have no idea how. I didn’t forget anything from my childhood and Ayla too was one of them, my first love but then why did my insides keep on shivering every time I called Ayla?

Why is it?

"So is your new girlfriend?"

I turned back when I found a person standing in the dark but I have an idea who it was.

"Why is it concerning you?" I said.

"Of course, it does concern me when I don’t want something to happen again just like it happened years ago", he said.

"Years ago? Ha, are you kidding me?"

"Who did what years ago? You or me?"

My eyes grew darker, making me clench my fist.

He kept close to me, letting him out of the dark and showing his face.

"How many times have I told you it’s not? How many times do I need to beg you and tell you to come home? Just how freaking time you want me to do it?" His voice was loud.

"James, I never told you to beg me."

"Not even once I said to beg me again and again then why are you doing it? Do you again want to be the victim card just how you always used to do? If you want to then why are you here? You should call your so-called dad and make him stand right in front of me and then you should act so that it will benefit you not like this.

"Aaron!!!!!"

Just how long have I heard this name?

This name is nothing but a curse for me.

"Shhh"

"Don’t you dare take the name?"

"It’s suffocating when someone takes the name reminding me what you have done to Aaron that day which made him leave the place, leave the home and leave the one he loved. So just don’t unless you want to come to my more bad sides." I said and started walking.

"Aaron, stop!!!!" he held my hand while I slammed on the wall making him groan.

"Didn’t I say fucking don’t take my name? Can’t you hear the simple sentence or do you want me to beat the shit out of you so that no one will recognise your face anymore?" I shouted while my hand was on his neck grabbing him tightly.

"Mr King leaves him", again another presence.

"Now who the fuck are you? Why are you calling me by the title?" I glared at him but still didn’t loosen my grip on his neck.

"It doesn’t matter who am I but you should leave Mr Lee", he said, making me chuckle.

"Oh, so your so-called dad didn’t come but sent a dog after you? Very impressive!!!" I loosen my grip making him thud on the surface coughing.

"From now on don’t you dare come toward me unless you want me to kill you in the most brutal way I know you have." I glared while he was still coughing.

I kept on walking forward without looking back. I don’t want to turn and be sympathetic toward him just like the day I left home and he was running after me to stop like a kid who is trying to stop his brother but I know we only have the same father not the mom so our emotions are different too and we can’t be in a good relationship.

"Aaron!!! Wait!!!"

"Listen to me!!!"

"Wait for me!!!"

Let him bark for a few minutes when he returns home eventually who even wants to lower himself down for so long? Of course, I can’t if it’s not for Ayla.

"Aaron", again the voice kept on calling me.

"Can you hear me, Aaron?"

"How could you forget me?"

"Don’t you love me anymore?"

This was what I was scared of. I kept on hearing her voice near my ear. It kept on ringing, making me remember the glimpse of her when I first saw her. She was my first in everything.

The first time I laid my eye on her I froze. Her eyes met with my blue eyes as if she was enchanting me just like the way Taylor swift described in her music.

"Why are you doing this to me?" I mumbled when I felt as if she was placing her shoulder on my shoulder.

"What am I doing baby?" her voice was gentle as usual but I can only imagine her child self as I could carry her at any moment.

"You are driving me insane even though you are not here."

"How?"

"I haven’t seen you for years, baby," I said, patting her illusion.

"How are you so sure you haven’t seen me for years?"

"I have seen you?", I asked while my voice sounded hoarse.

"Who knows?" she chuckled, making me massage my forehead.

I closed my eyes thinking she was resting on my shoulder when I felt a hand on my shoulder making me feel it was real.

"Ayla, is it you?" I got up from the couch.

"It’s me", it was James.

He is the last person I wanted to see.

"Why are you here? Didn’t I say not to come here? Did you just ignore what I said? Do I sound as if I’m joking?" I glared at him.

"I’m not but why did you just shout out Ayla? Are you still in love with her?" he asked while sitting on the couch.

"Why is it your concern?"

"Of course, it is mine when you were just standing with another girl I know", he said, making me tighten my fist and grab him by the collar.

"So you knew the girl and still chose to be closer to her?"

"Just how much of an asshole you can be? Is it fun to snatch the one your so-called half-brother likes or do you just always feel amused seeing me all miserable?"

"Tell me you fucking asshole!!!!" I shouted.

"You are still stuck there?" he said casually.

"What do you mean by I’m still stuck there? Ha did you forget how you confessed to her right in front of me and hugged her when you weren’t even in love with her? Or did you forget how you made dad slap me? Do you want me to remind you?"

"And now came here to make me remember everything I want to forget?"

"Aaron it’s not!!!!" he too shouted.

"I told you Xenon not Aaron so don’t be so casual as if you know me so well."

"Ha as if you change your name then your birth secret will be hidden", he laughed.

"You know what Aaron? You are just too dumb. Like I never saw anyone as dumb as you", he kept on saying circling me.

"If you knew I didn’t love Ayla then you should have told that to her so that she could have stayed away from me not me."

"I didn’t seduce a kid", he said so close to me.

"Stop mentioning that!!!"

"Why? Didn’t you just keep on mentioning what happened in the past? Then why can’t I when that girl just made you grow your anger and separate from your family, leaving you all alone?"

"You know that it was her not me but you vent your anger on me but not her."

"And now you are doing the same with another Ayla. Who knows one day she will go to someone and hold him so tightly while you again end up standing far like a broken-hearted person? It can be real don’t you think? My dear brother."

I could no longer see his facial expression but things kept on growing in my head imagining the scenario as if Ayla is running toward a guy and telling, "I no longer want to be a substitute as I find my lover."

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