Chapter 48: 48

"Do you still love her?" she asked again.

"Who?"

"Your Ayla", she asked, making me massage my forehead.

"Where did this question pop up?" I asked.

"I don’t know where it comes from but I always wondered why you always talk mean things to me from the very start. At first you put a border line when you signed the contract and made me too. I clearly have no idea what is going on in your mind but I kept having this feeling as if I’m losing myself in this chase finding something. You know that...."

She said while I again found myself in a dilemma.

"When that prom night solved things which were hard to figure out and I thought now things are ok here you again started acting weird all of sudden bring up my ex."

"Could you please stop mentioning about your ex?" I tried to be calm as I heard her saying something I don’t want to hear.

"Why? As I clearly said he is my ex not present", I can’t believe we are still arguing on this.

I took a deep breath while all of sudden my hands grabbed her shoulder with force.

"You know what, let me tell you what my problem is with your ex."

"You know the moment I came to you and you startled it is not you who said that you were scared to see me all of sudden but he did which was supposed to be informed by you not some out side I don’t know."

"Having you argue with me for him made me imagine what would be those days when you both were in a relationship."

"It makes me wonder did he hold you just like I do?"

"Did he make love to you the way I do?"

"Did he kiss those lips of yours just like I do?"

"Or do you want to hear more from me?"

"If you don’t stay away from me or I don’t know what I will do which will hurt you even more than you can imagine", I said while losing my grip on her.

She didn’t say anything as if I was talking to a wall.

"Ok better you agreed with me", I said and left.

I know this made a huge wall between us but if I wouldn’t do this then it will only tear me apart. I know she could have asked me about my past relationship but she clearly knew the moment she came there was nothing else but she only but the moment she asked me the question I made changes so as not to let myself get hurt all over again.

"Are you leaving?" Jennifer asked.

"Yeah," I replied.

"What about the breakfast Ayla made for you? Are you going to go just like this?" she asked again.

"Yeah if I stay here any further I can’t guarantee what will be the outcome."

"Did something happen?" she asked again.

"Maybe there is something more than just happened", I smiled scratching my head just like a shy teenager.

"Oh ok I won’t ask", she replied.

"Thanks", this was my last word in her place.

I was completely lost in my thoughts after I left her place but some random scenario kept on building inside my head.

"Her way of saying is just the same, making me have hope one more time", I said.

"Her?" someone spoke out of nowhere.

"You? What are you doing here?" I asked to see James outside of her place.

"That is what I need to ask. What are you doing here? Why are you coming out of her place? Where were you last night and why is your phone switched off?" He asked lots of questions at once.

"You don’t need to know where I go and where I spend my night", I tried to leave when I heard another voice.

"He doesn’t but I need to know", it was Galhan.

I turned again with annoyance.

"Are you trying to become a stalker now?"

"I’m not sure but I’m assigned to whatever I could do in order to have your whereabouts even if it means to be a stalker I will accept it."

Why

Why

Why

Why is everyone chewing my freaking head?

"I don’t know what the hell is wrong with you two and why the hell are you roaming around me like you guys are my tail but cant I have my fucking personal life? Can’t I have fun on my own? If I can just leave me alone.

I’m literally getting tired of this. I can’t do this anymore unless I cut both of you out of my own freaking life."

This isn’t not even 10 but I’m bursting as if I have been keeping my anger the entire day.

"What the fucking issue here?

And why do you both know my place as if you two put some tracker on me to track me down. It’s like I’m going to die and you two are trying to stop it."

My throat started feeling itchy.

"I’m sorry for all the trouble but you need to stop roaming around with that girl. It is risky for your fame", I can’t believe Galhan said this.

Did I hear something incorrect?

I don’t know but it really doesn’t make any sense to me.

"Ok if it is your work right now I will talk to grandpa again."

I let out my phone when I came to my senses that I don’t have charge on my phone. I looked up while they were still looking at me.

"I don’t have charge now so I will talk to him after I finish charging my phone", I said and left before them.

Now I understand Galhan’s issue but what is wrong with James. When did he act like my bodyguard? If I remember correctly then I never saw him act like a tail in front of me then why now?

Why does he get angry whenever I mention Ayla’s name?

Why did he get angry when I asked her whereabouts?

Why does he get angry when I say I’m still searching for her?

Why?

Why?

Why?

Everything is making me go crazy.

I’m still in the cab when my eyes closed on their own, making me land on my past memory.

"Did you confess to him?" I’m standing far away but still I’m seeing my child self asking Ayla.

I still remember the day.

"Ayla, I’m asking something, did you confess to him", I became forceful holding her shoulder which made me feel the same as I did just a few minutes ago.

I can see her snatching my hand and pushing me away.

"Yeah I confessed to me." she shouted.

"Yeah I love him so what?" her voice went louder.

"So what?"

"Why the fuck are you asking me if I did or not?"

"Who the hell are you to ask me?"

"Who the hell are you?"

She kept on shouting, making me lose my face in front of her until I left her.

Why did I ended up in this memory? Is it because I said something like this to Ayla too? Is it because it was too mean? Is it because I couldn’t control my anger anymore?

Why? Why? why?

"You should have loved me Ayla", I heard my child self mumbling to her but she couldn’t hear.

As my child self walked out of the place I followed him and sat beside him in the bench.

"What should I do to make her love me?"

"She love James but why can’t it be me?"

"Is it because he always behaves kindly when he is horrible inside or does she like that kind of nature?"

"Still why it is always him but I’m not?"

"Whyyy?"

I wanted to pat myself but I wasn’t able to grasp him.

"Sir"

"Sir"

"Sir"

"Ah, yeah", I woke up from my dream.

"We have reached", as he said I came out of the cab and went inside but I see something which I never expected.

"Grandpa?"

"What are you doing here?" I asked and went closer to him.

"I had to come because of your childish behaviour", he said, throwing a file in front of me just like Galhan did one day before.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Your insolent behaviour", he said while I picked up the file finding more photos of me and Agla from yesterday’s night.

"If it’s insolent behaviour then what are you doing grandfather?" I asked him instead of putting the file in front of him.

"Aaron!!!" he shouted.

"No grandfather you are forgetting that Aaron is no longer my name but it’s Xenon, Xenon Carter."

"How dare you talk back to your grandfather?" he groaned in anger.

"When my grandfather doesn’t know how to respect one’s privacy then why should I bother to have the respect not to talk back to you?"

"Aaron"

He again shouted my name while James and Galhan entered through the entrance, reminding me of a drama going on here.

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