Chapter 56: 56

Ayla came out of nowhere and pulled me toward a corner. I actually have no thoughts that she will come to me after that day but why is she here? Why did she behave like the way she did with me the day I laid my eyes on her for the first time?

She looked angry as well as badass at that time just like today how she told me if I lose this chance she won’t return even if I beg so I can never miss this precious chance of mine.

"Where are you taking me?" I asked as she didn’t even stop.

"To a private place?" she said with a straight face.

"Private place?" I asked.

"Yes to my home", she said but as I was processing my mind she already pushed me inside a cab and told the driver to drive to her place. But there was something wrong with the place address.

"It isn’t your place right?" I asked again.

"It is my place and you will know when we reach", she said but she didn’t utter a single word.

I have no idea where she is taking me. I have no idea what is going on in her head but some tingling sensation made me touch her finger when her eyes finally looked at me.

"What?" Her voice sounds as strict as her eyes, which made me disappointed.

I wanted to ask why you are being so cold to me today. I wanted to ask why are you not looking at me the way you did before but then some thoughts entered my mind which kept on telling me aren’t you the one who pushed her away? Then why see you asking those questions?

What if she is taking you to break up properly?

Yeah, maybe she is while Aaron is being so dumb just like his childhood self did for waiting for Ayla.

"Ayla, is it what I’m thinking?" I started panicking as I asked.

"What are you talking about?" she asked.

"I know why you want to take me to a private place and if that is true then I’m not going," I said.

"Driver, please stop the cab here", I shouted while the driver screeched the can in the middle of the way letting me come out. I can see she came out as well when I started walking out of the place.

"Xen, wait!!"

"Stop making me angry!!!" She sure sounds strict as a teacher.

"No, I’m not stopping and I’m not making you angry as well so stop there because I don’t want to go to a place where you are going to put an end to all things", I was saying standing far away from her.

"Look Xen, I don’t know what is going on in your mind but we need a place to talk and it’s not this place."

"I need a calm and private place", she said.

She tried to say something again when said, "Why private place? Why? It’s not like you want to have sex with me again?" I didn’t realise how loud my voice was but thank God the driver didn’t hear as the glasses were covered as well as the doors. No other vehicles were coming too but Ayla stayed silent for long.

I have no idea if my words made her even angrier or what but I don’t want to hear her saying "Let’s separate ways"

I would never want that.

"I don’t want to leave you", I said it at last but at the same time she said, "Yeah I do want to have sex with you."

She was looking down. Her facial expression was not visible to me but I felt as if I heard something wrong.

"What?"

"What?"

We both shouted.

"What did you say?" she asked.

"That’s what I need to ask. What did you say just now?" I asked.

"Xen, this is something I asked first so say what you said", she again returned to her strict mode.

"Ladies first so you will say"l kept on pestering her when she came toward me, breaking the gap between us.

"I asked what you just said or I will make you impotent for the rest of your life", I gulped as she said.

I took my step backwards involuntarily.

"Don’t you dare", I said.

"I will if you don’t say what you just said", she smirked and waited for me to speak.

I took a long breath and said, "I don’t want to break up with you."

Yeah, I said it. Gosh, I never felt this lame in my entire life. This is the first time when I’m begging someone to be with me. I’m not ashamed but I don’t want her to think I’m uncool. I’m not the way I look but how could I say I’m like this just because of her? There is no other reason but her who made me go crazy like this.

"Who said I want to break up with you?" she asked Making me snap out of my thoughts.

"You don’t want to break up with me?" I asked again.

"Yeah I don’t want to and it is not like you ever put a formal tag in this freaking relation," she mumbled but it was clearly audible to me.

"You know what is your freaking issue?" she asked.

I stayed silent.

"You don’t even think twice before you do something."

"You are always in a hurry whatever you do just like the time when you first met me and to repay your favour you agreed to my condition to spend the night with me."

"You are already in hurry to repay the favour but you didn’t think what if I became clingy at the end and became like the previous girlfriends or sex friends of yours?"

I was only listening to her while she kept on nagging me but it was soothing to hear .

"Then the next day when we met at college you brought me to your home to explain the situation and made me sign a contract when you too were not sure what if your feelings will turn and you fell for me first? You didn’t think but when I try to put a line between us, you begged me to be with you ."

"You know what Xen this way you are hurting both of us."

"I know no matter what I told you and no matter what and how we crave to be with each other in the end it will always be like there will be a burden with the first love of ours. And I have the question too: what if you turn your back on me if the old Ayla comes back? Huh, can’t I ask the question?" she asked.

Yeah, I did think of this but I am too aware that if the old Ayla returns will she love me the way I love her? Will she love me and crave for the way this Ayla does?

Will she?

Or what if she has already chosen someone?

I was thinking while I couldn’t hear what Ayla was saying when my eyes fell on someone I knew. He is coming toward Ayla which made my brain stop processing for a while.

What is going on?

"Ayla"

"What are you doing here?"

"Who is this guy?"

"And why are you standing here?"

I became frozen for a moment.

"Dad, what are you doing here?"

"Didn’t you return home then why are you here all of sudden?"

"How did you know I’m here?"

They kept on talking right in front of me while I didn’t speak a single thing until they realised my existence.

"Xen, sorry for this for now I’m returning to home so let’s talk tomorrow for sure", she kept on saying while her dad took her home. I wanted to walk forward and hold her tightly saying, "She is my Ayla."

Yeah, she is the one I loved unconditionally and I loved her again this time as well. For so long the guilt kept on lingering inside me telling me what if my Ayla returned and I told her I don’t love her anymore? But it was all my thinking till now because the Ayla who again made me fall for was none other than my first love who I lost.

I was in nine clouds the moment I saw Mr White talking with her and she called him dad. I couldn’t understand just how happy I am today. It’s like God has given me the result of my long prayers. It’s like my dream came true.

Gosh, Ayla how come I didn’t know when you were so close to me yet so far?

After you left the place I realised just how much I wanted to squeeze those lips of yours and make you cry with pleasure under me. My pants have already tightened just thinking about being with my first love.

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