Chapter 66: 66

"What do you mean by I won’t get what I came to get", I asked.

"You came for Ayla right?" Mr White asked.

I nodded.

"You came so late", as he said I felt as if the surface under my feet moving on its own or I couldn’t place my feet properly.

"Dad, what are you telling them? I don’t understand why did you let them in the first place and why are we even discussing about Ayla with them.... She is our family member, not theirs and why is this guy trying to meet Ayla? Who is he?" Jace kept on asking.

I couldn’t able to say anything. I was still sitting on the stairs.

No one said anything.

Not a single person uttered a word while Jace kept on asking about the situation.

"Jace, you shouldn’t interfere. You go to your room", Mr White said but I still don’t know why the family looks so distant from the first time I placed my feet here.

"No, dad!! I’m not going. I don’t want to go until you tell me what is happening."

"You did the previous time too and trying to hide things on your own and you are doing this again too."

"Jace, you are aware of the situation that you did the previous time and you may be aware of the situation too if you try to understand so just keep silent," he said while I felt Jace’s gaze on me.

"No no, it can’t be?"

"You guys may be lying right? Or playing pranks?" Jace tries I deny the situation.

"No one is playing my dear friend but what are you seeing is right. And you don’t have to get angry with me as well because the one your sister fall for was never me but it is always him", I can’t believe he is explaining the situation or trying to ask him for a fight.

"Yoh stay out of this."

"You are not my friend."

"I m not your friend? So what I m? And if we lose the friendship then who’s fault it is? Is it mine? Or it is yours?"

"It’s yours. If you could have taken care of her then this could have never occurred. Like never!!! She could have never known!! She could have been happy even for a while and never left this place and stayed here with us. If you only had to keep your lust in control", Jace kept on clenching his teeth while accusing.

"Huh! It is my fault! Then what are you because I know you are not whitewashed right?" James raised his brows.

"Youuuuu!!!"

"Stop it!!!" I shouted.

The entire place became calm again.

"I should leave", I was about to leave when Mr White stopped me.

"I think you should go to her room and see what if she may be left for you", he said while I again walked inside her room while it was all tidied. It’s not like the room was cleaned but still, the things are in their place as if she kept her place organized before leaving.

I walked toward her bed while I could still smell her on the sheets. I may sound like a pervert but I’m attracted to her. I like her. No, I love her. I love her scent. I love her touch and I love how she is but getting her scent after months it’s like a bouquet for me.

I laid down on her bed thinking she would have slept here right? And the way I’m lying on the bed it sure is like she is looking at me right now. Did she cry while sleeping like this? Did she complain while thinking about me?

I’m not sure but I never knew things would turn to this stage when I thought I tidied up all the misunderstandings that happened.

When I come to realise I can finally tell her that the one I used to love and the one I love now is not a different person but it is always one.

And it’s none other than her Ayla.

I got up from bed and walked toward her study table when I find her diary opened. It’s not even closed while the pen is still placed above the diary which has been buried in dust.

I picked up the diary and remove the dust using my shirt to wipe.

I flipped her diary from the first page where I find something written for me. It was nothing new because she sure thought of me like this because I wasn’t there to help her when she was bullied in school. But there are times I was presented beside her just like the day when I was collecting notes and Freya took her note and claimed it to be her. That time I couldn’t help her either.

I flipped to the next page where she mentioned the kiss which happened in the infirmary. I still remember the kiss. Even though the curtain was between us still there was a time when our lips touched and I gave my first kiss to her.

I still remember how I buried myself with my burning face. My lips were tingling with the touch of her. It was a new feeling for me. It was my first kiss with my first love. If I could have to say that to someone they may have a thing all teenagers experience but no one loves their first lover till the day they can which I did.

I flipped through more pages when I finally found her notes from the last six months.

"I have two good news for me."

"I m dying with my happiness."

"I sure want to tell him first. And if it’s not him then I will never share my happiness with anyone because he is a part of my happiness."

"I didn’t even book a cab or ask for my friend’s lift but I drove the car for the first time after I got my licence. I never drove before or after but this time my act was kind of a stunt just that’s how I was happy to meet him."

"I dialled his number thousands of times."

"I even lost count but while dialing his number I was already in front of his house where I could see none."

"The entire place was empty until I heard his scream."

"It was loud. I could hear what he was saying so I went up near his room but what I saw sure made my eyes teary. I never felt that much hurt in my entire life."

"I saw him hugging a girl. His chest was naked. As I saw I had the urge to go near him and make him come to his senses and tell him it wasn’t me. The one he was holding wasn’t me but someone else but the more I took my step forward an old man stopped me and asked who I was."

"I m Ayla"

"As I said he pulled me downstairs while he was still hugging the girl"

"Why are you here? Don’t you know that he doesn’t love you", that old man said.

"He loves me. I had the suspicion that he is Aaron but now I’m sure he is Aaron. My first love and I’m also his", I tried to argue as much as I could. I didn’t want to give up on him until he said, "No you are not. The one you just saw was his first childhood love and now she has come back so there is no need for you to be here. Their marriage is too fixed, that is why he cut off all contact with you."

"I don’t know how I could have reacted but still I told him I needed to talk to him but he didn’t let up until the girl came out of his room while I was standing there as if I already lost myself to her."

"I walked out of the place even though I didn’t want to."

"Till now I never cared about my appearance or how I look until I saw the girl who got to be with him. She looked dazzling as if she came straight from heaven while I was nothing but a replacement. Now I wonder why he lied to me. Was it fun using my name when he never intended to love me?"

"Why is it me?"

"Why?"

"The last time we talked over a call before I left the city he told me he loved me and he will come to me eventually even though whoever we are with but in the end, it was my only promise. It was completely one-sided which made my heart break again."

"It was pathetic."

"I had no choice but to come here but now I think I couldn’t stay here anymore or dad will not know about my situation which I don’t want to."

"I should leave."

"And I know dad will let me go as long as I keep in touch with him."

"I may never get to write this diary ever again but still this diary is my last hope which made me feel good."

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