Chapter 71: 71

"How dare you try to make my mom scared?" Ayla spoke while I was still massaging my forehead.

"But shewww ishh mwaii aunntt", that little boy spoke in such a cute voice making me all explode.

"She is my mom", Ayla argued again.

"Mwaii aunttt", he too went with it.

Both kept on pulling me holding my legs which made me stumble.

"Ayla, if you keep fighting I will fall", I said while trying to control my footsteps.

"No, mom you won’t fall", she said but I kept on feeling as if my leg was weakened making me fall.

I don’t know how long I can hold but it sure is making me feel the same way I feel in my dream which makes my head spin as well.

I kept on trying to control myself but I somehow fell to the floor.

"Ahh", I tried to get up but my vision was still blurry.

I know this is not normal but after her birth, my body has become so weak as if I have zero strength. It feels so light as if I just stood where the wind kept on flowing. I will feel like fall.

"Ayla"

"Ayla"

"Are you ok?" dad asked.

"Ayla, you ok?"

"I know I should have kept Josh in control but I didn’t, it’s all my fault", Keeny kept on saying, making me feel even more guilty.

"Ah no I myself am like this so it’s not your fault", I said and walked toward my room. I didn’t see Ayla’s face. It’s not like I’m angry but I don’t want to see me as weak as she always likes strong people like Kylie, Jenny, dad now Jace.

I know I shouldn’t feel like this but I kept on having the same inferiority complex again. What if she won’t like me anymore seeing how weak I am? What if she says, "Mom, why are you so weak? Look how other people are so strong. I don’t want to be like you. You are so useless."

It kept on eating me inside but how should I say when I ran away from home everything went into a mess.

Flashback

"Dad, I know when you see this letter you won’t be able to find me here but I will be careful to keep in touch with you."

"Don’t tell anyone we will be in touch and please take care of yourself", I wrote my letter to dad and walked out of my room with my luggage where I don’t even have many clothes to take.

Just how long are these clothes going to fit me? 1 month? or 2 months? Or 3 months? I’m not sure because I’m already 3 months pregnant now and I have zero ideas about how pregnant women take care of themselves when they are having a baby. I really had no idea.

There was a time when I found out I was pregnant. My feet were not even touching the floor with overwhelming happiness of mine but I was even happier because I wanted to share this news with the love of my life but he abandoned me because the contract started with this.

I shouldn’t have listened to him when he came back again.

I shouldn’t have listened to him when he cried and told me to take him back.

I shouldn’t have listened to him when he kissed me, making me weak all over.

I should have pushed him away from the moment then why the hell do I have to be so weak then?

Even though I don’t regret having this baby.

I thought and walked out of the house when I got a call from Kylie.

"Yeah Kylie, did you reach your home?" I asked.

"We did but when are you coming?"

"Didn’t you say you will be here in a week then why you didn’t till now?" they kept on asking me while I couldn’t reply.

"I will be there tomorrow", I said and get a cab going toward the airport.

***

"Ayla!!!" Kylie called out to me when she saw me coming out of the airport.

"Gosh you came so freaking late", she said while picking up my luggage.

I was still trying to figure it out when she touched my stomach, gasping.

"Woah our little baby is growing well", her eyes were sparkling.

"You know?"

"Of course, we know", she replied but kept on touching, reminding me the baby bump started showing already.

"Jennifer too?"

"Yeah", she said while I sat in the cab.

I realised why they didn’t ask me when I left. I don’t know why they are asking me now too but my head is being a burden thinking all this.

Screech...

"What happened?" I asked.

We are still in the middle of reaching.

"You need to have breakfast now that is why", she said and pulled me out of the cab as if she knew how hungry I was without my stomach being grumbling or without me telling.

While she brought food for me I stalled on the roadside but suddenly something happened to make my heart beat faster. It’s not a good feeling but a scary feeling I left behind.

"What’s happening?"

"Why are my fingertips trembling as if they are already aware of the fear?"

"Why?"

I was still thinking about walking toward my cab. Someone pushed me to the other side of the road which has nothing but spread down. It looks as if someone fell from there and there won’t be any bones left while they search.

Am I going to die in the same way?

I closed my way but someone held my hand and tried to pull me up but the girl who pushed me was still standing there while she had a crazy expression just like a psychopath. But why did she push me?

Why does she want me to die?

Why?

"Die, Ayla!!"

"Die!!!"

"You destroyed my whole life."

"If it weren’t for you I would have never gone to the child detention centre."

"It’s all your fault to come where I ruled."

"It’s all your fault Jace left me."

"It’s all your fault I became a laughing stock in front of everyone."

"It is all your fault."

"So die now."

"So that I can revive myself."

"Go die so that no one can even find your bones", she kept on sprouting while I had no idea what she was saying.

I wanted to ask who you are. Why are you trying to kill me but before I could she herself said, "can’t you recognise me, Ayla?"

"Or you are acting so that you will be the victim just like usual."

"I have been following you for years now but never find the right time but now when you are dead I will revive myself so that I can be the old Freya. The Freya who was loved by all and became a beauty bee among all."

"So die

As she said some glimpse again ran in front of me making my fingers weak. I don’t have any idea who is holding my hand but I’m sure today I will die. After today there will be no Ayla so there will be no sorrow for Ayla as well.

But those glimpses again pulled me to the past.

When I was standing in the middle of class and the same girl who pushed me from the cliff slapped me in front of all and no one was defending them. I can feel their giggle while I was being slapped but there was a point when her nails pierce into my cheeks when my eye fell on Aaron who looked at the other side.

"So is this the real you?"

"Is this why all my classmates are telling me that you have to suffer because of me?"

"So you too hold a grudge against me right?"

My memory kept on running back to me even though it’s been years I can’t believe I finally got my memory back.

I kept on remembering what little Ayla wrote in the diary.

"I saw a boy who made my heart skip a beat. It never happened before but he is not my laugh but a beautiful shell without any qualities."

I kept hearing the quotes in repeated mode.

"So I really am not the person you fell for."

"So I was just a substitute all alone?"

I started laughing seeing my real self sitting on the floor while everyone kept on leaving the place when the bell rang. Her cheeks, and lips were bleeding but she didn’t utter a single word. Not a single person came to help her.

So this is how it feels to be left behind.

I was such a fool all along.

Ayla, you are such an idiot every time you put your trust they broke just like once James did and now Aaron did.

Such a useless human being on earth.

***

"Ayla"

"Ayla"

"Ayla"

"Ayla"

"You ok?"

"Ayla, wake up!!"

I opened my eyes when someone called me so loud and it was none other than my friends and the place where I’m lying in the hospital.

"Thank God you are ok." they sighed in relief.

"How’s my baby?"

"Baby is ok."

"Maybe she was worried for you too."

I smiled.

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