Chapter 124: I Am Leaving You

Siroos froze for a second, seeing her teary face; the sapling’s wilted leaves were holding onto her as if providing her support. They had turned blue.

Her doleful eyes held so many questions and emotions.

Betrayal

Treachery

Dishonesty

Anguish

Despair

They slit open his heart and sent pangs to his abdomen as if someone was gutting him alive. She had just started to accept him and now they were back to an even worse situation than their beginning.

"Tara, give us a moment," Siroos asked and Tara quickly scrambled away, nodding her head.

He took careful steps towards her but her broken voice had him halting.

"Don’t come near me." Her heart wished to leap out of her chest as the broken bond between them purred in agony from their situation.

"I won’t, I just wish to speak," he quickly said, ignoring the storm the bond was causing in his chest. His eyes wouldn’t stop taking her in.

Her eyes were bloodshot and puffy from incessant crying. He couldn’t see her chest as it was covered but he was sure there was a bruise underneath the fabric from his pushing her away.

His left hand was still broken; it hadn’t healed after he had constantly slammed it against the wall. He could no longer feel his wolf which meant his healing powers had been suppressed as well.

Cassandra dipped her eyes to the blue leaves and stroked them with the back of her hand as she willed herself to speak. Her voice was so weak like the broken wings of a moth.

"I am leaving, can you arrange a carriage for me? Just outside of your lands. I will find my way from there."

Her gut-wrenching words made his knees wobble. The pain sprouted inside him like poisonous vines shackling his every limb and infecting him with their toxins.

He dropped onto his knees in front of her.

"Don’t go, Cassandra. I know I have wronged you in ways I can never make up to you. But I will die trying. My life will be void of colours, the colours you have brought into it."

Her pained eyes, filled with tears of hurt, swivelled to him, and her chest constricted as if there was a fire inside her.

His scent of sage whorled around her, trying to calm her agitated heart. The damn bond wouldn’t let her even breathe.

Pulling, pulling her towards him.

"I can’t stay with you. I told you the day you will choose another woman is the day I walk. Don’t worry, I am not breaking my bond with you. I won’t push a whole pack to extinction because of the sins of their Alpha. But I can’t be with you anymore." Tears flowed out like pearls of pain and dropped on the leaves, turning them a melancholy blue.

Siroos shook his head in regret; every line on his face was etched in indescribable pain.

"This plant will die without you, Cassandra. The world out there is cruel. If only you had a loving family, I would have let you return, but except Lotus, no one cares."

"I will bear them, at least they don’t fake the care, unlike you. I know our bond will never be complete and it was only a matter of time before you went to another woman. I can’t take any more heartbreak."

Siroos wanted to explain everything to her but he knew it wouldn’t change the fact that he had slept with Kela and then burnt her alive. Cassandra hated violence and it came so naturally to him. But he had to try, at least for her sake.

"I didn’t go to her, Cassa. I didn’t know what I was doing until it was too late."

Siroos placed both his hands on his knees to curb the itch to touch her, to wrap her in his arms and comfort her, to wipe away her tears. He had lost that right. He skipped the part about how he was drugged and almost lost his wolf and other animal spirits. It would devastate her.

The plant shook as if in pain, it was absorbing all of their emotions and slowly dying. But a new tendril sprouted and reached towards Siroos, clasping around his wrist and tugging him forward.

Cassandra felt his truth in her bones. She knew he wasn’t lying, she could experience his grief and agony. That’s why the plant had reached out to him, trying to provide him comfort too.

"I am sorry, I don’t know what to believe. You seemed very keen while buried inside her," she lamented. Her chest was threatening to explode from the raw emotions brewing inside her.

"But I am tired of this to and fro. It’s clear that no one wants the union for us. Not the gods and not your Elders. I can’t keep living like this."

"Fuck the gods and fuck the Elders. Everyone involved has been dealt with. Kela and those Elders will never harm us again. Just trust me, Malakti." His eyes wouldn’t stop flickering between red and gold. The dragon inside him

whined.

Cassandra let out a heavy sigh, the weight on her chest kept getting heavier and heavier. The tears wouldn’t stop for the love of anything.

"That’s the thing, Siroos. I don’t trust you anymore. My life is like a desert now, with you dropping a few drops of water every few days and then leaving me barren for so long," she shook her head and wiped her tears before continuing.

"And burning people alive in my name? I told you I don’t need that kind of violence. This reunion is nothing but bringing pain to everyone. You, me and your people. I think it will be in everyone’s interest if we stay apart. No one will have to die. It will be much better if you will let me leave altogether."

Siroos tiredly got up from the ground, hearing her words. His eyes glimmered with salty water, containing his raw emotions. He never thought a day would come when tears would collect in his eyes.

The plant curled back into itself.

"I would like to show you something. Can you accompany me? After that whatever your decision will be. I will accept," he asked in a pained broken voice. He had never been so vulnerable as he was in front of his mate.

The plant retreated from Cassandra as well, urging her to go with her mate and hear him out.

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